the pain is worth the reward

My favorite quote is: "I do not regret the things I've done, but those I did not do". It's by favorite quote because it's how I feel life should be and how I wish I could feel about all of my regrets.

Mistakes are made - that's the hard truth of life. Wayne has always told me that if he could go back in time and change just one thing - he wouldn't because maybe, that change would lead him to somewhere other than to me.

I have made a lot of mistakes. I try to learn from them. Some lessons are more consequential than others and some, are just never learned. Some, we try to forget and others should never be forgotten. Yesterday's blog was hard to write and even harder to read today, but I need to say this - although I wish it never happened, it's now a part of who I am. Our experiences are what makes us who we are. Maybe the pain is worth the reward because if it was Roger (the bad ex) that led me to Wayne, then if you asked me if I'd do it all again - I'd have to say I would because the pain is so worth the reward.

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