I'm out of commission for the second day today with severe muscle spasms and a pinched nerve in my back. The pain is honestly awful. I can't even take a deep breath without crying out. I'm not sure what caused it. This sort of thing happens from time to time with my condition. I can be fine one moment and the next I'll bend over to tend to a load of laundry and I'll be in excruciating pain. Yesterday, I went to put moisturizer on my legs after my shower and I've been in pretty bad shape ever since.
I went to meet my trainer at the gym anyway to see if he could help me stretch thinking it might help and ended up even worse last night. We speculated over and over about what could have done it, (I think he feels responsible in some way), but I think the bottom line is that I'm just broken. I was broken before starting at the gym and I'll probably still be broken once I'm fit. This is just a part of being me and living with my condition. I just try to tell myself that it could be a lot worse and considering what other illnesses can do to people - I'm pretty lucky.
I'll blog again when I'm feeling better...
It's been a while since I blogged regularly. I guess I've been going by the rule - if you don't have anything nice to say - don't say anything at all. I hate 'woe is me' type entries and for the last month or so, I've been really down and haven't had anything good to say. I think it started with the news that Aniela (my fellow expat girlfriend) was moving back to the US and was exacerbated by the incident with Wayne's cousin and the flare up of my condition (along with a general feeling of homesickness & loneliness). I was really depressed for quite a few weeks there and haven't been doing much more than going to the gym and other random things to keep me busy during the day. I haven't even worked on my web classes (in any serious way) in weeks (probably because I can't concentrate when I'm in pain - never mind get very motivated). I'm not so down anymore. Maybe it's the sunshine. Maybe it's the fact that I'...
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