Today was one of those days for me. One of those days I can only describe as a 'female' day. A day I felt down in the dumps and horribly depressed for no real reason (besides the obvious). I've been just laying on the couch hiding from the world. No work today, no sunbed like I'd planned to do after my workout that never happened. I just laid on the couch feeling depressed. I caught up on TiVo until there were no shows left to watch and then I popped in my Elizabethtown rental that's been sitting on top of our DVD player for weeks now.
I almost sent it back without watching it because it's gotten such bad reviews and it's rare I see a movie I like these days. I loved it. It's been a really long time since I've gotten really sucked into a movie. I've worried as of late that I've become too cynical to watch movies in that kind of way, but it happened today. I got sucked into this make believe world of some fictional character and I got to watch them take their little journey through a portion of their life and it reminded me that I'm on a journey too and it inspired me - It inspired me to try and make the most of it (even though it's not always easy.
I used to have a list of things I've always wanted to do, but never have. I made the list before I met my husband and was hopeful about the road ahead. Since then, I've done some things on that list and I'm thinking maybe it's time I pick my head up and do some more of them. Tomorrow, we're leaving for Ireland. I'm going to see a new country. I'm getting a new stamp in my passport. One of those things on my list was to get a passport and go somewhere that will get me a stamp - who knew I'd have so many by now? I've never seen the sunrise. maybe if the sun comes out for our trip, I can check that box too.
So we're off tomorrow for 5 days and my plan is to make sure I enjoy it - no matter what the weather!
I quit smoking when I moved to the UK, mainly because I promised my husband I would. I did it for him, but not because I wanted to. I enjoyed smoking. I missed it, but quit successfully for many years until I went through a stressful time and started again. My relapse lasted over a year. The whole time, I was ashamed of myself. I hated the smell. I hated how I felt, I hated the health risks and I hated my lack of willpower. I've known a few people who have tried e-cigarettes. I was a skeptic. I thought it was going from one habit to another. The people I knew that tried it, always had it and were constantly sucking on it. It seemed to me they were more addicted to it then they were cigarettes. I don't know any smokers that constantly had a cigarette in their hand. Then in January, I saw a piece about it on the BBC News. I watched with interest thinking they were going to say that they have found it to be harmful. What they said was quite the o