What do I write about today? Do I tell about the guy next to me at the grocery store this morning throwing up not once, but 3 times? Not something I need to share any further...
Do I write about the card I got in the mail from my best friend telling me how much she misses me and how much it means to know she misses me as much as I do her? I can write for hours and never say enough about how hard it is to not be sharing our lives as much as we did before. I'm missing her kids grow up. I'm missing the small stuff, the big stuff and everything in between. I miss her and sitting around talking about nothing and everything. I just can't say enough about that...
Do I talk about how guilty I feel every time I light a cigarette because I've promised my husband I'd quit (again)? The other day he came to me, hugged me and said it's time to stop. He said he gave me my time (recovery time from the aftermath of the miscarriage) he said he gave me my time and it's time to stop smoking again and to start thinking about trying for a baby again. I told him okay without an argument. I promised I'd quit and today after the guy vomited next to me on the check-out line - I bought a pack of cigarettes. When I got home, I called the hypnotist I went to to quit the first time I quit. It worked before for 2 1/2 years and I have no doubt it will work again. I'll go to see him later this week . I just have to talk it over with Wayne first as it's gone up in price from
It's been a while since I blogged regularly. I guess I've been going by the rule - if you don't have anything nice to say - don't say anything at all. I hate 'woe is me' type entries and for the last month or so, I've been really down and haven't had anything good to say. I think it started with the news that Aniela (my fellow expat girlfriend) was moving back to the US and was exacerbated by the incident with Wayne's cousin and the flare up of my condition (along with a general feeling of homesickness & loneliness). I was really depressed for quite a few weeks there and haven't been doing much more than going to the gym and other random things to keep me busy during the day. I haven't even worked on my web classes (in any serious way) in weeks (probably because I can't concentrate when I'm in pain - never mind get very motivated). I'm not so down anymore. Maybe it's the sunshine. Maybe it's the fact that I'...
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