After a long few months, it's time for Wayne and I to start trying for a baby again. To be honest, I've been tentative about this time coming. A few weeks ago, I was thinking that I didn't think I'd want to try again right away. My thinking was that when we do try again I'd have to be prepared for the possibility of another miscarriage. I'm 35 and would be lying if I said I wasn't worried that there could be something wrong with me that would cause me to not be able to sustain a pregnancy. The doctors here don't do tests until it's happened 3 times. My biggest fear is that I may have missed my chance. I know my worries may be superfluous, but it's still a possibility that I have to recognise and it's really not something I can say I'd be prepared for no matter how much time I tried to allow myself.
So now that the time has come, I can't help but want to try again right away. Wayne was keen to dismiss the doctors advise on waiting at all so there was no question for him on whether or not to give it more time. I'm nervous, anxious and hopeful all at the same time and I wish I could fast forward through the month and take a test to see if we will conceive as easily as we did before.
We've decided to take a romantic break to London this weekend. I love London. I find it to be an absolutely magical place and when I'm there, I still find it surreal that this girl from Jersey is walking the streets of London. We're staying in a really nice hotel, going to dinner and a show that I'm thrilled to have gotten tickets for. We only seem to go to London for special occasions and this is indefinitely such an occasion. I'm looking really forward to it.
My in-laws just left after a five day visit. I don't mind it being a five day visit, but then again, five days of your house not being your own is always a bit unsettling and although I don't look forward to their departure when they are here, I can't say I'm sad to have things go back to normal. As a treat for my son's birthday, we took him to the Museum of Natural History in London on Thursday. He chose to go because we took him last year (he's been crazy about dinosaurs since he was three years old). They give out adventure packs at the museum which consist of a back pack, safari hat, and binoculars with an adventure to follow during their visit. The back pack has clues in it to solve a mystery. Last year it had a dinosaur claw, a tooth and a sample of dinosaur skin he had to match up to one on display. He had a great time solving the mystery and even remembered which dinosaur it ended up being. Last year's trip was wonderful. We walked right in,
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