After a long few months, it's time for Wayne and I to start trying for a baby again. To be honest, I've been tentative about this time coming. A few weeks ago, I was thinking that I didn't think I'd want to try again right away. My thinking was that when we do try again I'd have to be prepared for the possibility of another miscarriage. I'm 35 and would be lying if I said I wasn't worried that there could be something wrong with me that would cause me to not be able to sustain a pregnancy. The doctors here don't do tests until it's happened 3 times. My biggest fear is that I may have missed my chance. I know my worries may be superfluous, but it's still a possibility that I have to recognise and it's really not something I can say I'd be prepared for no matter how much time I tried to allow myself.
So now that the time has come, I can't help but want to try again right away. Wayne was keen to dismiss the doctors advise on waiting at all so there was no question for him on whether or not to give it more time. I'm nervous, anxious and hopeful all at the same time and I wish I could fast forward through the month and take a test to see if we will conceive as easily as we did before.
We've decided to take a romantic break to London this weekend. I love London. I find it to be an absolutely magical place and when I'm there, I still find it surreal that this girl from Jersey is walking the streets of London. We're staying in a really nice hotel, going to dinner and a show that I'm thrilled to have gotten tickets for. We only seem to go to London for special occasions and this is indefinitely such an occasion. I'm looking really forward to it.
I always catch something when I fly. Every time I get on a plane, I make sure I pack cold & flu medicine because I know I'll be sick for the next week. I told my doctor about it because I was wondering if I could get a hold of something over the counter to help. I know in the US they sell things that are supposed to help. He told me to buy Vicks First Defense (which is available in the UK over the counter, but as of last November, was not available in the US). It's a nasal spray that you don't inhale. You simply squirt it into the side of your nostril a couple of times and wait a few seconds before you take a breath through your nose (avoiding taking a deep breath for a few minutes - I once inadvertently inhaled it and let me tell you, it was painful so take my word for it - don't inhale it). The spray is supposed to form a thin layer of gel at the back of the nose, where it should trap the virus, disarm it and help the body to flush it out. I was hesitant w…
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