Tomorrow is my birthday. I'm turning 36. It feels uneventful this year - like I could almost forget if I wasn't near a calender. Maybe it's because this year things are more like they should be and turning another year older just isn't p phasing me all that much. I know last year turning 35 really bothered me, but I was turning 35 and still had no children - maybe I felt time was running out and it scared me. This year I'll be having a baby and I have a wonderful husband & marriage. This year it hardly even bothers me that I'll be spending most of the day by myself before Wayne gets home from work (I guess we'll have to see how I feel tomorrow). Maybe birthdays don't phase you as much when you have almost everything you want. A few friends in the same country would be nice, but I can't really complain can I?
The baby furniture came for the nursery today. I'm really excited to see it and hoping Wayne will be just as keen and want to put it together tonight so that tomorrow I can spend the day organizing the room. We have boxes of stuff from the baby shower just sitting in the nursery and as it is right now, I peek in there every once in a while just to see the things because it makes it all feel less surreal. I really can't wait to start decorating the room.
It's been a while since I blogged regularly. I guess I've been going by the rule - if you don't have anything nice to say - don't say anything at all. I hate 'woe is me' type entries and for the last month or so, I've been really down and haven't had anything good to say. I think it started with the news that Aniela (my fellow expat girlfriend) was moving back to the US and was exacerbated by the incident with Wayne's cousin and the flare up of my condition (along with a general feeling of homesickness & loneliness). I was really depressed for quite a few weeks there and haven't been doing much more than going to the gym and other random things to keep me busy during the day. I haven't even worked on my web classes (in any serious way) in weeks (probably because I can't concentrate when I'm in pain - never mind get very motivated). I'm not so down anymore. Maybe it's the sunshine. Maybe it's the fact that I'...
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