I think I'm finally going to stop saying that I'm going to try to start blogging again on a regular basis - it seems to have the opposite effect on me...
Things haven't changed much here. Ethan is doing fine and the doctor has all but given the all clear. She's keeping his case open so that we can track his progress.
Wayne's green card application is coming along. He has an interview at the end of the month. With any luck, it won't be too long and we'll be able to move back this year.
Me, I'm still bored, still lacking a social life (unless you count my 2 year old best friend, who is fabulous company, but not a great conversationalist) and still homesick on a regular basis.
Wayne's cousin (and best friend) has just met an American girl on-line. Thier on-line relationship lasted about a month before they met in person and after 2 short weeks together, they are planning they're wedding! They are Wayne and I on speed! Yes, it only took us 26 days to a fall head over heals with each other and meet in person, but Wayne waited 6 months to sell his house and move to the states! I say this tongue in cheek because it was probably just how long it took him to sell the house to enable him to make the move. We were married a year later - 6+ years and we're still in love and have a family.
The thing is, I have to wonder how common our story is. I'm sure alot of people do what we did and what Wayne's cousin is doing, but I wonder how many actually end up truly in love and in successful relationships after moving so quick. I like to think when it's right - you know. We truly knew and once we were together, it never accrued to us to have it any other way. I still can't help but have my concerns for Wayne's cousin and his new found love.
An international love affair is not for the faint hearted. Before someone can make a move, you spend most of your time heart broken and missing your love. When someone finally makes a move, they have to leave all they know and love behind. This is no easy task. If I knew then, what I know now would I change things? No, I'd do it again in a heartbeat, but I can't say it's something I'd recommend to others because although I am happy with Wayne, I am not happy living in England and never have been.
We just broke the news to Wayne's family that we're planning our move to the States. I can't help but feel guilty to cause them so much heartache (never mind what my loved ones have had to endure over the last 6 years).
When things started for Wayne and I, nothing could have stopped us, but we never took into account how many people would suffer by us being together. It really is bitter sweet. I waited my whole life for what Wayne and I have, and I am so grateful to have it, but it has never been easy. I just hope that the move gives us a better life. I hope he ends up liking living there because I'd hate for it to turn out that one of us will always have to sacrifice being truly happy.
It's been a while since I blogged regularly. I guess I've been going by the rule - if you don't have anything nice to say - don't say anything at all. I hate 'woe is me' type entries and for the last month or so, I've been really down and haven't had anything good to say. I think it started with the news that Aniela (my fellow expat girlfriend) was moving back to the US and was exacerbated by the incident with Wayne's cousin and the flare up of my condition (along with a general feeling of homesickness & loneliness). I was really depressed for quite a few weeks there and haven't been doing much more than going to the gym and other random things to keep me busy during the day. I haven't even worked on my web classes (in any serious way) in weeks (probably because I can't concentrate when I'm in pain - never mind get very motivated). I'm not so down anymore. Maybe it's the sunshine. Maybe it's the fact that I'...
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