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Old Wounds

When I have a lot on my mind I clean.  It's a control thing.  There's not a lot you can control in life, but you sure can control how clean your house is.  I cleaned a lot today.  I also was listening to an audio book while I cleaned to try to avoid thinking too much about what's been on my mind.  I can't say how many times I realized I had no idea how long I wasn't listening because my mind wondered and I'd have to go back and try to find my place. 
I sat down with the book to read it in book form and did the same thing.  I wasn't at all thinking about what I was reading.  I've given up for the day.  I just have a lot on my mind.  I have for the last couple of days.
This writing thing is hard.  It opens old wounds.  I apparently have unresolved issues that I didn't realize were unresolved.  Maybe some things never are.  I have friend that have told me writing it will be therapeutic.  It will help me make peace with my past.  Only time will tell.  So far it's a bit much and I'm feeling emotionally drained.  It's a Thursday night and I have a glass of wine next to me...

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