Yesterday after the school run, another mom and I decided to let the kids play for a while. We were walking to their house together when a group of guys called out to us. It was basically the English version of 'Yo Yo Baby you're looking fine!' don't ask me to repeat it because I can't even type an English accent (even after all of these years). I was walking with a twenty-five year old girl so I assumed she was the target of their outburst and ignored them. Then one called out, 'Hey there gorgeous! You in the grey - you are beautiful!' I was so shocked that he was talking to me, I laughed out loud! In hindsight the poor guy probably thought I was laughing at him. The truth of the matter was that I could have run up and hugged him!
My confidence is at a low right now. In the last year I have gained 25 lbs. My arthritis has gotten much worse and I wasn't able to workout for months. I ballooned. Over the summer I hated putting on a bathing-suit and more times than not opted for a one piece rather than feel self conscious in a two piece. I am working hard to get back into shape, but the fact that I spend a great deal of time with other mothers who are nearly young enough to be my offspring doesn't help at all. I feel fat, I see grey hairs come through all the time and for the first time I see lines forming on my face. There was a time I would have been offended by such obnoxious behavior, but today I was grateful. It was a much needed ego boost because I really thought that the days of being yelled at on the street were well and truly over. I know it's a bit sad, but it really made my day!