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I miss air conditioning

I'm supposed to be at the gym right now. I think the heat has me feeling sluggish. I keep telling myself to just get up and go, but I really don't feel like it. The dialog in my head has been - 'I guess I don't have to do weights today. Maybe I'll just do cardio' and 'Maybe I can go later' followed by 'God it's hot today - why doesnt his damned country believe in air conditioning??' As I type, I'm still debating in my head on weather or not to just go before I don't go at all.
My weekend pretty much sucked. The only friend I thought I had - I lost over the weekend. Our doom has been impending for a while now. I won't go into details, but he told me he wasn't me friend after a drawn out discussion. I've been told that my standards are too high and I expect too much out of people. Maybe it's true. Maybe I do judge too harshly. I just expect that if I'm going to be friends with someone, we have to at least have the same values and morals. I can't respect someone that lies, cheats or has no integrity. I can't be friends with someone I don't respect. So yeah, maybe my standards are too high, but maybe it's something I don't really need to change. I don't know. Maybe I should just go to the gym...

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jowdjbrown said…
Just pure brilliance from you here. I have never expected something less than this from you and you have not disappointed me at all. I suppose you will keep the quality work going on.
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