I'm so f@cken bored. What I wouldn't do for just one social contact in this country. I spend 90% of my time by myself and to be quite honest - I'm sick of me. I'm bored with me and I'm bored with trying desperately each day to find a way to just pass the time. I hate to sound so 'woe is me' because I'm really not sitting around feeling sorry for myself, but I am sitting around feeling restless, alone and really stir crazy.
My business is small and these days it only takes me a couple of hours to do what needs to be done for the day. I place my orders, touch base with customers who need me, send a few emails and in just a couple of hours - I'm done for the day and searching for things to do. Wayne just let me know he won't be home until 8:00 tonight. That's over 8 more hours I have to kill before then.
I think I say more to my cats each day than I do to actual humans - if they start talking back - I'll be really worried about my mental health! I should go to the gym, but to be quite honest - since the miscarriage, I haven't been feeling much like going (I'm down to 3 days a week and some days feel like I can actually feel myself getting fatter). Sometimes being out amongst people just makes me feel more alone. It's not like anyone really talks to me and if they do, it's so superficial it feels not worth bothering. I hate small talk. I can have small talk with the cat at home and get just as much out of it as I can with some random gym employee who's job it is to act interested. God, I'm cynical.
I was thinking of not publishing this post because who wants to read my complaints, but it's honest and I think a blog should be honest. Plus, it might shed some light on why I don't blog more often - my life is so mundane that sometimes, there's just nothing to say.
The other mother and I went into the school to meet with the teacher and the assistant head. We both let them know how upset we were that we were not informed that our children were sent to the office and how much we were against the children being allowed to play fighting games on the playground. I told them I wouldn't allow it at home and I'm really unhappy that it's being allowed at school. They admitted it was a problem and explained that they are planning to introduce a a scheme to teach the children to play in a safe way. They will be calling it 'Super Hero Training'. They plan to give out capes & masks out to children who behave well as rewards at playtime. They will have assemblies where they will teach the children to play fighting games without making contact. I find this to be absurd. The problem has gone on to long and I doubt they will be able to teach little children to change their games when they have sixty other childr...
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